Ughhh I'm Still a Smoker

One of my previous blogs was about my attempt to quit cigarettes....well so much for that idea. The quit didn't work although I did quit longer than I'd ever quit before so that is a good sign. Why do cigarettes have such a hold on me? I'm probably no different than most smokers...I need my nicotine and I'm sure my smoking is due to both the physical and emotional addiciton that I have. During my quit I think the thing that made it the most difficult was being around others who smoked. Maybe if I could've just locked myself in my room for three months and didn't have to see my mom, my friends or my daughter with a cigarette, I just might have been able to do it. But oh well, I'm back to living life as an "outcast" smoker, and sure I know it's bad for me but I sadly admit I enjoy it. One of these days I might give quitting another try, but for now, I'm back to being a smoker.